Kinda tired of this "credit card in my pocket"

Greetings,

I haven't been blogging recently on account of studying for exams and because I haven't had a whole lot to say. My mind gets so tired of trying to memorize things that I just don't want to think about relevant life issues at this time. However, being at Leia's graduation on the weekend got me thinking a lot about what I'm going to do after I graduate in December. I just really don't have any idea of what sort of thing I am interested in doing. It may just be due to the end of the semester but I am super tired of biology. I am uninterested in it right now and have no desire to go to grad school to do research. It feels like I have no ambition and am just living to survive. I want to live, however, for a specific purpose and feel like I'm making a difference in the world. I don't know what that is yet and so I am praying that I will be keeping my mind and ears open to what God is leading me to do.

Another thing that I have really been struggling with lately is humility. The pastor at Leia's church on Sunday spoke on servanthood and just really getting rid of the "me first" attitude. I struggle with this. Even when I was at the old folk's home on Monday I did things according to my schedule and to best suit my needs. I'm praying too that God will give me a humble heart and attitude. Like the humility to swallow my selfish pride and ask you to pray for me. It sometimes seems that our personal struggles aren't worth the time when there are millions of people dying and struggling with bigger trials. But God is a God of love and cares about us immensly, even trivial things of our lives.

On a lighter note, I am healing quite well from my surgery. It has once again been a struggle to rest and take time off from the gym, but I have obeyed doctor's orders and held off . . . until today. Haha. So I went to the gym, no big deal, it's almost 2 weeks and I didn't push it, in fact I barely did anything at all.

I have one exam left today and then I am homeward bound until June 7th or so. On the 9th I start my marine mammals course at Bamfield Marine Science Centre upisland until July 18th. Should be fun times. It will definitely push me out of my comfort zone, which is a good thing . . . I think. I don't have a set plan for August yet, so I will be pondering that in the next little while. I guess there is lots of time to think when I am working with my dad.

My stamina for writing long blogs has dwindled. I hope to be a better blogger in the summer when I have a bit more time and am not exhausted from all this studying. Later days!!

Recovery

Wow it's been quite a while since I updated this thing. I guess not a whole lot has happened recently. Classes are done and I have already written 1 final exam. I have another one this morning and then 3 more coming up. Last weekend I went to the mainland to visit Leia and CBC and it was as relaxing as I said I wanted it to be on my last blog. Jack in The Box was also great!!

Other than that the only new thing would be my surgery. It went really well on Thursday. They had frozen the area so I wasn't in pain until 3:30 that night. Yesterday was awful though. I barely got out of bed and didn't eat much of anything. I am so thankful for my roommates. They went to the store for some gingerale and fruit juice and such. Haha we also watched a movie and ate popcorn last night. I could be on my death bed and I would still eat popcorn. Today though I am feeling 100% better. I am still moving at a turtle's pace and I can't stand for long, but my sleep was great last night and the pain has subsided. No more T3s for me.
Also a huge thank you to my friend Jessica, who stayed at the hospital with me and has called to check up on me everyday. She's the greatest! These are the flowers from my family!!! I love the colors!

My chem test is in just over an hour so I just hope that I can manage through it. I know that God has been answering prayers because I didn't think that I was going to be this alert and feel so good this morning. So all the glory to Him!!! Thanks so much for your prayers!