Tired

Greetings!

The title says it all. I am tired. Mentally, physically, emotionally, etc. It's been a whirlwind of a last couple of weeks but lately things have been going so well. I decided that I can't really be grumpy all the time even if I don't get to eat much. People are just too precious to me to be angry and not my happy self. Plus my manager was giving me some grief about how they can only be tolerable of so much. He should shove it. My trainer was hired when he was 2 weeks out and totally not with it, so yeah like I said, my manager can suck it up. I have pulled good sales this month anyways and will continue to do so.

This weekend was awesome for so many reasons. I just love weekends because then I get to workout at a very casual pace and just have a lot of downtime to do nothing. Saturday I only had a couple of clients and so I cleaned out my drawer at work. It's like I am a new trainer! It's so organized and clean. I also cleaned out my gym bag later in the day and put the roof back on my jeep. It was such a day for getting things done. Today too! I cleaned the jeep and . . . well I guess that's it, but it feels like a lot. Smells so lemony fresh. Sunday was awesome. I haven't been going to church the last couple of weeks because 1 am too tired, 2 I don't want to have shallow conversations about my show over and over 3 I had a posing clinic last week in Burnaby. But I went yesterday and it was so great. Darren's message was really good and it was awesome to just reflect and pray with fervency (if that's a word). I haven't been so good at reading my Bible and praying daily but yesterday was just a reminder of how much God cares for me even when I don't seem to care. And how much grace He has to take me back. He has orchestrated so many things in my life and although I don't give Him all the credit that He deserves, I know that He is behind it all.

I love being a personal trainer! There was a lull in the summer when I didn't know if this was the job for me, and I still don't like the sales part, but I love it. I love the interaction with people, I love helping them achieve goals and live a better healthier life, I love having them give me advice based on their wisdom. It's so awesome! Later on Sunday I remet a girl that I had met before at Sbux and the gym and we were just randomly talking and then got on the topic of church. Turns out she wants to go to TWU to do what my roommate Elisha is doing and she is getting baptized next week and I said that I would go! It's so cool. And then later on in the day when usually I work out in Langley, I was in White Rock and people I didn't think were going to be at the gym were there and I had a great time talking to them! The timing of everything was impeccable.

Now it's Monday and I only had 1 client. Yippee. Did 2 workouts, just 3 to go and then I will take it easy tonight and watch football. Football is the greatest!!!!! I don't miss playing flag though but mainly cuz I am too tired. The excuse behind everything that I am doing right now. TIRED.

Later days!

The Journey

Greetings!

Happy Thanksgiving too! What a journey the past few months have been prepping for this show. The ups and downs of everyday thinking "will I be ripped enough?" "am I big enough" "how am I going to make it through another 2.5 hours of cardio today". These are the nagging questions I have all the time. So far, I get through it all. Only 1 day have I not done my cardio, and that was this last Saturday. I worked in the morning and then I was invited to a card making class that one of my clients was putting on. We made 5 different Christmas cards and 4 of each card. It was so much fun. Like scrapbooking but not having to come up with the ideas yourself. You just follow the template and make the cards. I loved it. I then came home and cooked my food for the week/sat on the couch. Actually I even went to bed early like at 730pm because I was pooped.

Speaking of this Thanksgiving weekend, it's been a good one. Sunday I worked out lots and then Mike and I figured out my routine for the my show. I am getting really excited now. It's less than 5 weeks away now. SO IF YOU WANT TO COME, GET YOUR TICKETS! I then did a bit of baking (guilty I ate some too) but it was chill. I made a ton of food for the week and I made 2 magazine Christmas trees for Christmas. I also pretty much finished my Christmas shopping online and decided that I am going to make a whole bunch of Christmas treats for my friends and clients. Homemade gifts! I am going to start on those soon too as I have the brainless time right now.

I have been learning lots about self control, discipline and motivation through this process. I also have come to realize that I love my job. I love helping people see results and making good money at something that comes so easily. I need to be more social, but I don't hang out with people for fear that I am going to say something bad or lash out at them. It's happened before in the past couple weeks. I have been HULKISH since Thursday and so I am staying clear of all civilization - or the best that I can.

The best way to do 2.5 hours of cardio a day is to split it up into 1 hr and 20 min sections. Reading a magazine makes the time go by the fastest. Doing spin class or talking to Kristie, who comes with me, also makes the time go by fast. Just watching tv kinda sucks. The food network is okay though, but football is the best. I love Sundays for workouts because there is so much to watch and it's entertaining!!!!

Well that's all for now, gotta go eat something and then go do some cardio! Have a great thanksgiving!