Certainties About Exams

Greetings,

There are a couple certainties that accompany the dreaded exam time:
- actually seeing what the inside of the library looks like
- opening the textbooks that you bought for $120 for the first time
- snacking or drinking tea all day, every day
- being on-edge and irritable the days leading up to a big final
- no more classes!!!
- a great desire to NOT study for the next exam after having just written one
- finding anything possible to do instead of studying (like I am doing right now)

I thought that I should give you all an update anyhow. Last week was relatively uneventful other than going to Adore and finally having people to sit with!!!! I went to visit Serena for her birthday and we spent Friday night at CBC watching the men's bball game which they narrowly won by 4 points. On Saturday was the big birthday party which was, of course, fun times! Also I gave Serena an awesome present. On December 13 she will be accompanying me to Overlake Christian Church in Redmond, Washington to watch a Michael W. Smith and 65 piece orchestra Christmas concert!!! I am so excited. It is going to be amazing.


As for my future . . . I really don't want to think about it. I know that I should be responsible and be making some plans, but right now I just want to bask in the celebration of being done my degree! Honestly though, the more unsure I am of what I will be doing in January, the more peaceful I am. I have fully given it over to Jesus. I have placed all my worry at His feet and am just allowing Him to spark ideas and opportunities that I could go after. I used to think that being indecisive about something and letting Jesus guide you was a cop out for actualy making a choice. I thought that by having an idea in mind and taking steps to accomplish that, and then having Jesus tell you to do something else, was the only way that He was supposed to work in you. Like, I thought that it was a leap of faith to give up what you have and follow on the path that He is leading you. However, I think that He is willing to give us what we want. He wants us to work at a job that we are passionate about. He wants to see us in an environment that is uplifting and a place that we can encourage and bless other people. And maybe that is why I am having a hard time deciding on something. I know that what I chose to do in January doesn't have to be the one thing that I do for the rest of my life, but I want to be on the path to achieving future goals. What I do now does affect the future and my opportunities in my career of choice. I am passionate about marine life, animals, nature, but also cooking, baking, sports, health and fitness, and my faith. How do you go about narrowing that down? I don't think that it's supposed to be "What does God want me to do?" I think that it should be more like "How can I serve and love God and people in my career?" and "How can I honor God best with my life?"

So if you have made it this far in reading my ramblings, I would appreciate some prayer. For exams and deciding my next step. Hope the rest of your November is rockin'! Later days!