The Saga Continues . . .

Greetings my beloved readers!

I don't really know who reads this thing still but I love writing on it when I have the time. Which would be right now as I ice my knee after yet another workout. Didn't push it too hard today as I have to gear up for a hard day tomorrow. I joined the Steve Nash Sports Club yesterday. I am a sucker for a good sale (obviously) and so my seven day trial turned into a membership. He sold me. The gym is awesome! It's huge and such new equipment. There are not that many people in there at a time. They offer classes such as spinning and yoga and personal training. That I will have to pay for eventually but for the first hour you get a free consultation. I am stoked. The guy that I was talking to also is going to help me watch and talk to the trainers to shadow them to practice for my upcoming weight training exam. I practiced on Leia last night too. LOL. It was fun, but she knew too much already so it wasn't as realistic. I guess some clients will think they know everything though, so I should be prepared.

I am super stoked about this opportunity and gym. I got an awesome deal as a corporate member under Starbucks! Who knew? And I hope to get a job there in the near future and then I won't have to pay any fees. Here's to hoping the next step is to move into the condos/appartments above the complex in the area known as Morgan crossing. It's a huge new area practically in White Rock and just 10 min drive from work at the max. As close as I am now, except I would have the gym there, shopping such as Thrifty foods and Walmart and all the good shops in Morgan Crossing strip mall. Not that I shop that much but if I did, it would be nice. I just have to find someone to share an apartment with to cut the rent. Then it would all work out!

The good thing about Steve Nash too is that they just bought out Fitness World and so there are locations everywhere in the lower mainland. So if I end up wanting to move, then I can just go to the gym in that location! Yay! And the one in vancouver has massages and all sorts of added bonuses in the club. It's so cool. A little more expensive than "She's Fit" where I have been going, but it's a small price to pay (no pun intended). Added bonus is that there are GUYS working out there too! It's a good change and a much needed one.

It seems that this gym issue helps solve a little more in my life. I am wanting things handed to me right now as I am comfortable, but I really need to work harder. I need to network more, get out there, and make some decisions without this huge fear of failure. It's frustrating having that hang over my head. FAILURE. I have no expectations to live up to except my own and I have placed them so high that all I do is fail. I am not good enough unless I am perfect. That is definitely not the mentality that I need to have to achieve. In order to achieve my dreams and goals I really need to want to succeed more than I am afraid to fail. I think that overcoming this is the first step. So I have been trying to step out of my comfort zone, do things that I just hate doing in order to take risks and see myself actually fail. That way I can compare that situation to this false failure that I have placed on myself.

Anyhow I have really lofty goals that are readily achieveable, I just need to work at it, do things I don't like, and take one day at a time.

As for the rest of life, pretty much all I do is go to the gym, work, sleep and eat. I love love the gym. I am totally a gym rat and even more so now. I should just sleep there. haha. But on other notes, tomorrow I am going to the States with Leia to do some shopping. A little bit of Christmas shopping but more so just general shopping and eating at my favorite restaurant called Milagro. It is the best homemade mexican good I have ever had. Every single person that I have taken wants to go back, and has gone back on their own.

Saturday is the big day that I have been waiting for since July. After Diana and I feasted on chocolate at the Chocolate Buffet at the Sutton Place Hotel in Vancouver, we have been planning this pre Christmas party there again this year. So Leia, Diana, Amy and I are going there on Saturday all dressed up and ready to feast. I haven't really eaten chocolate in all of November so I am ready for it!

I am also stoked to have this weekend off to relax a bit (not really a word in my vocabulary, but I will try) and finish all my weight training homework and get ready for my exam. I am almost ready so I will book the practicum exam soon next week or the week after. Then phase 2 will be complete!!!! I also get Sunday off so I can go to church!!!!!!! and watch football all day!!!!!! It's going to be the best weekend ever!!!

Well this has been a super lengthy text but I just have a little bit more to share so bare with me. As a result of not going to church, I have been neglecting (procrastinating day after day) reading my Bible and praying. I have not felt "far from God" as so many people say, but I feel so proud and boastful. I have been trying to do this all on my own without any words or wisdom from the One who really is in charge. So the past couple of days I have been giving a little more time to building that relationship and already I feel so much stronger because of His Strength really. He is the one that builds me up. He is the one that feeds my mind, soul and body. He is the one that I should be living for. He is the one that has expectations that I should be trying to reach and live for.

Thanks for listening today. You are one tough cookie if you held on until now. And if you did, you win a free training session with yours truly. Haha. No but seriously, call me if you want some advice/direction. I will be elated to give it to you!!!

Later days!