In a funk

Greetings!

Hello dear readers! My birthday was a great success as the weather was super warm, the warmest it's ever been on my birthday, and so I spent most of the day outside walking. Leia and I really enjoyed breakfast in the states and had some coffee and walked around a bit too. I walked with my friend Diana in the afternoon and then went to work at the gym.

Speaking of which, the job is going well. I have really picked up a lot of clients due to the other trainers not having room, going on vacation, and just allowing me a chance to train some people. The last 2 days have been very busy with clients and training but it has been so fun. On friday I was training this guy who wants to build muscle mass and train for a RCMP fitness test. It's so fun because that's what I specialize in. Today had a number of clients that I really could push with high intensity workouts that got their heart rate up. Some others aren't as exciting but I am on this crazy huge learning curve with training, weight programs, nutrition and working the system at the gym.

I am really missing my friends at starbucks and having people to talk to everyday all day. It has been getting very lonely during the day when my friends are working and I am not. I have been filling my time with coaching basketball, working out (when I feel motivated), cleaning, baking, spending time outside, and just trying to figure out why I am in this funk (as I like to call it).

I think that it is coming down to this huge change in life stage right now that I have been comfortable in my job at starbucks and really good at it, and now I am thrown into something that I love, but am not instantly great at. I really have to work at making sales and presenting myself and meeting people. It's fun but hard at the same time. I am not as busy and I haven't adjusted to what I should be doing in free time. How to rest, when to workout, when to eat, how to get things done that I really need to get done. I just feel like I am wasting a lot of time when in reality I am just trying to relax. So I am really excited to move in March because then I will have a roommate and someone to have fun with and connections to other people to hang out with on a more daily basis.

Time with God has been dwindling, not because of being busy, but lack of motivation. Like most things right now. I just ask myself "Why am I doing this? It won't affect anyone but me so why do it?" This is entirely the wrong mindset but I just can't shake it. I also haven't been able to attend football practice or my college and career which really cuts down the social time. I miss football so much. I loved having something to train for and see results and play and have fun. I miss cluster a lot too, the friendship and challenges with spiritual life, the fun and the food. I am going to start attending another cluster on Sunday nights because I am avaliable then and they are the same age group. I will not abandon my other cluster, but to attend something on a regular basis is what I need.

Well that pretty much defines this funk that I'm in. It's humbling asking for prayer for myself and for something that seems so insignificant, but if you could remember to ask God to strengthen my relationship with Him and have the motivation to do the things that I know are going to benefit me and my life whether it be working out, getting out more or spending a heck load more of time in the Word. To not make excuses but to push myself outside of my comfort zone and make the most out of this time in life.

I'm off to watch the Canucks/Flames game at Boston Pizza with some friends. So keep it real.
Later days!